and the hospital, obviously, cooperated. and the newspapers also. in those days, i guess you didn't talk about it so much. migdoll: if you're a close friend or family member, you never accept that death will finally come. that somehow some miraculous way, something's going to turn around. man: and we were really happy in l.a. when mr. joffrey came to the premiere of "le sacre du printemps." he was very spry. he seemed so well. and we were like "oh, he's getting better. this is great, this is great." and then that christmas we premiered "nutcracker" and he was very ill. and it was just difficult. i went to see him, he was in the hospital. and to me, what i hated was that little room. bob's apartment was so rich. it had all those paintings those books, those records. and there he was in that little room, cold. and he didn't look very good i must say and i knew that i was saying goodbye to him. arthur: my husband and i went to new york to visit him, and that was just after the new year's. and it was hard. it's still hard. sorry. and he wasn't good. and